Perhaps this should not have been such a surprise, but the ability to read our mind really blew mine.
This was discovered accidentally by the same person that developed the polygraph using the same equipment. This is kind of long and to just see the evidence for sentience fast forward to 23:00; it's quite compelling as is what follows and it explains why I would always get a severe pang of guilt whenever I would cause a plant to die, for whatever reason.
This is truly mind changing research and the video is highly recommended in its entirety; personally it was like a book that could not be put down and was watched until the end.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Does America need employed Americans or more cheap "genius" workers from abroad?
The arguments made over the years for the existence of numerous 'genius' level workers in foreign lands is not without merit; just the population numbers alone make that a certainly. Finding them on our US playing field 20 years ago was quite easy, however, curiously, once Clinton passed the American Competitiveness Act, in 1998, they were few and far between. At that stage we were getting just your average worker, and less, American workers were being forced to train non-immigrant temporary workers that were carrying resumes that were complete frauds. (This was proven and amazingly on the news at one point, but quickly faded away never to be seen.) You see India, for example, until 15 or 20 years ago, was using predominantly manual systems and had few locations for their programmers to get the experience shown on their resumes; so the experience was cooked up.
How did America get into the software leader spot to begin with if we were so empowered by the 'genius' workers from abroad? It's because this was not only about cheaper labor, but also docile labor that could be pushed into giving up their weekends as well, where American workers frequently demanded time with their families and were accustomed to getting their unpaid weekends off.
If they were so important to "American Competitiveness" then why have we tanked with the huge increase in 1998? We've thrown the baby out with the bath water by displacing our corporations best customers: American workers.
The talking heads on TV and said "they'd create more American jobs in other areas due to their being so smart", but the facts do not support the premise as in 1998 we were flooded with Indian and Chinese workers. Notice in ten years all that happened is our economy has tanked? That was clearly propaganda to keep the American masses from going ballistic and the congress from backing down to the increase.
Americans had to train them and even the smart ones, for some strange reason, could not see the simple and elegant solutions that often existed. At Pacific Bell many projects of Indian teams had to pair down their requirements and were late with their deadlines on even relatively simple projects.
The bigger issue is that the huge majority of financial programming jobs, genius level programming is not required, the past experience with the applications is what of value; in other words the information American programmers are teaching to their 'competition', American corporations would have you believe the fact they're cheaper is merely coincidental. Furthermore, American workers, frequently beat even theses so-called "genius workers" in the creativity department hands down. They were not even close and this came as a surprised, until I sat down to think about it; their cultures are regimented into following ours is one of independence and freedom. (The Japanese and Chinese too have this limitation, but my experience was more with Indian nationals.)
Also, while all of them were outwardly nice, inwardly many did not like America; in fact they had a contempt for America that made me very uncomfortable and wonder if they'd be taking back our technology in the areas where genius level work was important and giving it to or creating our next competitors. (In fact I knew this was going to be a problem and more so with the Chinese market where the scandal reared it's ugly head in several areas; one was with a direct electronic interface with NASA giving the Chinese direct access to NASA contractors data.) What was strange was this was reported and the programmer reported that nothing was done to the consultant. This was reported by the same programmer that reported the vote rigging software he was contracted to write that would flip the vote to a designated winner. While this too never made the evening news, the court testimony was on Youtube that the consulting company for whom he worked also directed highly sensitive NASA and anti-tank data to China and reportedly did not even get any jail time. (Fast forward to 9:40 for testimony on sending information to Communist China.)
The best arguments made in public for globalism are a lie and it's value to corps is in the very unlevel paying field that exists in the host countries like India, and China. Mexico too, for example, had a system that was working very well for the country, but by the time NAFTA was well underway their workers were laid off from the competition of the American genius workers forced north to survive. There was no way they could compete with the American agribusiness and many workers from other industries as well were losing workers to American companies that are now struggling from their having no customers due to their being replaved by 'genius', cheap actually, workers from third world countries.
Now suddenly, and exactly as planned by the banksters, the too are out of work and will have little money to add to their economy leaving all these genius filled companies without paying customers having to make cuts. Naturally, those cut were the America workers that demand time to spend with their families on the weekends for which they're not getting paid anyway. The foreign workers are willing to work 6 or 7 days a week, EVERY WEEK, and this to me was hard to complete with as I required time with my kids. They felt lucky to be here getting 5-10x their normal wage and will take home their 'winnings' and retire comfortably. I would do the same thing if I were them, but they will also take code and techniques back and create competitive companies against which future Americans will have to compete and with a full company of cheaper genius workers having made improvements to their software.
It worries me that this was done in Rome as well and it is what caused the economy to fail. When this is added to the known agenda to merge Canada/Mexico and the USA makes you wonder if this is being used for this very purpose. Especially with the banksters using the trillions of dollars, IN THE DARK, to deflate the currency in time for what? (Amero perhaps?)
I love the culture of freedoms created by the American experiment, although the ends did not always justify the means. If only our people would wake up to the bigger picture of the huge risk of losing American sovereignty in the name of corporate profits that are now in the rather single minded drivers seat of America. At the same time I hope we have the chance to correct our mistakes as well as we certainly have made our fair share.
What's hard to understand is how corporate America is already seeing the effects of unemployed workers and yet not moving to keep their American workers / customers employed.
How did America get into the software leader spot to begin with if we were so empowered by the 'genius' workers from abroad? It's because this was not only about cheaper labor, but also docile labor that could be pushed into giving up their weekends as well, where American workers frequently demanded time with their families and were accustomed to getting their unpaid weekends off.
If they were so important to "American Competitiveness" then why have we tanked with the huge increase in 1998? We've thrown the baby out with the bath water by displacing our corporations best customers: American workers.
The talking heads on TV and said "they'd create more American jobs in other areas due to their being so smart", but the facts do not support the premise as in 1998 we were flooded with Indian and Chinese workers. Notice in ten years all that happened is our economy has tanked? That was clearly propaganda to keep the American masses from going ballistic and the congress from backing down to the increase.
Americans had to train them and even the smart ones, for some strange reason, could not see the simple and elegant solutions that often existed. At Pacific Bell many projects of Indian teams had to pair down their requirements and were late with their deadlines on even relatively simple projects.
The bigger issue is that the huge majority of financial programming jobs, genius level programming is not required, the past experience with the applications is what of value; in other words the information American programmers are teaching to their 'competition', American corporations would have you believe the fact they're cheaper is merely coincidental. Furthermore, American workers, frequently beat even theses so-called "genius workers" in the creativity department hands down. They were not even close and this came as a surprised, until I sat down to think about it; their cultures are regimented into following ours is one of independence and freedom. (The Japanese and Chinese too have this limitation, but my experience was more with Indian nationals.)
Also, while all of them were outwardly nice, inwardly many did not like America; in fact they had a contempt for America that made me very uncomfortable and wonder if they'd be taking back our technology in the areas where genius level work was important and giving it to or creating our next competitors. (In fact I knew this was going to be a problem and more so with the Chinese market where the scandal reared it's ugly head in several areas; one was with a direct electronic interface with NASA giving the Chinese direct access to NASA contractors data.) What was strange was this was reported and the programmer reported that nothing was done to the consultant. This was reported by the same programmer that reported the vote rigging software he was contracted to write that would flip the vote to a designated winner. While this too never made the evening news, the court testimony was on Youtube that the consulting company for whom he worked also directed highly sensitive NASA and anti-tank data to China and reportedly did not even get any jail time. (Fast forward to 9:40 for testimony on sending information to Communist China.)
A huge question is why the man that was sending NASA contractors data to China did not get any jail time and was fined $100.
The best arguments made in public for globalism are a lie and it's value to corps is in the very unlevel paying field that exists in the host countries like India, and China. Mexico too, for example, had a system that was working very well for the country, but by the time NAFTA was well underway their workers were laid off from the competition of the American genius workers forced north to survive. There was no way they could compete with the American agribusiness and many workers from other industries as well were losing workers to American companies that are now struggling from their having no customers due to their being replaved by 'genius', cheap actually, workers from third world countries.
Now suddenly, and exactly as planned by the banksters, the too are out of work and will have little money to add to their economy leaving all these genius filled companies without paying customers having to make cuts. Naturally, those cut were the America workers that demand time to spend with their families on the weekends for which they're not getting paid anyway. The foreign workers are willing to work 6 or 7 days a week, EVERY WEEK, and this to me was hard to complete with as I required time with my kids. They felt lucky to be here getting 5-10x their normal wage and will take home their 'winnings' and retire comfortably. I would do the same thing if I were them, but they will also take code and techniques back and create competitive companies against which future Americans will have to compete and with a full company of cheaper genius workers having made improvements to their software.
It worries me that this was done in Rome as well and it is what caused the economy to fail. When this is added to the known agenda to merge Canada/Mexico and the USA makes you wonder if this is being used for this very purpose. Especially with the banksters using the trillions of dollars, IN THE DARK, to deflate the currency in time for what? (Amero perhaps?)
I love the culture of freedoms created by the American experiment, although the ends did not always justify the means. If only our people would wake up to the bigger picture of the huge risk of losing American sovereignty in the name of corporate profits that are now in the rather single minded drivers seat of America. At the same time I hope we have the chance to correct our mistakes as well as we certainly have made our fair share.
What's hard to understand is how corporate America is already seeing the effects of unemployed workers and yet not moving to keep their American workers / customers employed.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
The Mayan Calendar according to Ian Xel Lungold
I've always had a fascination for the Egyptians and the Mayans. These two presentations on the latter, to the degree the theories are true, are quite illuminating as to just how special these people and their predecessors, probably the Olmecs, were. The second presentation, by Maurice Cotterell, strongly suggests their brains were somehow more evolved than ours. Perhaps this apparently deliberate 'dumbing down' process, that any researcher soon sees, has been worse than we realize and has affected our ability to mentally manage images.These theories on the Mayan calendar are the most intriguing I've heard and most had the ring of truth. Part 2 of Ian's very long presentation is here and his site MayanMajix too has a wealth of information. When you look at the physiotypes of the Mayans depicted on his main page, do you too see OLMEC features and perhaps the traditional Jewish nose? What about the 'Mayan' hair styles?
Could this be where it all started? Could the images of the white slaves depicted in the presentation by African studies professor Jose Piementa Bey presentation, be a product of these people? Could the creation of a white slave class be the sin against G-d that triggered what was essentially a historical 'changing places'? Anyone that says this is impossible is not thinking.
There are a dozen sources of this video now on youtube and the person that opened my eyes to some incredible Black history was called "Brothahaneef". Several of the videos on his site were stirring, to say the least, and even though a reply to my several requests was not forthcoming, I will be forever greatful to this person for making these videos available. Information that rang true not only in my head, but also in my gut; many so-called 'mysteries' were closed the day his site was found. Especially the mysteries of the Olmecs and their likely contributions to our culture.
It's a very long presentation, but if you fast forward to 43:10 on the first video above and just watch that portion it's amazingly logical and informative as to the depth; I'd never heard of the 'Rosetta' stone for the Mayan calendar itself. I'd bet money this data came from the Olmecs; just like basketball and other items for which the Mayans got credit. (Someone sure gave the Olmecs credit with those amazing statues, and I'd bet dollars to doughnuts that not only are the majority of these theories true, but that the bulk was inherited from the Olmecs.)
I just love this guy; he does not have the academic background that many do, but was a great presenter and definitely had a heart. Even if some of what he's presenting is incorrect there can be no doubt he believed what he was saying.
If the source of the translations of the Mayan language is the same source as the 'End of Times' portions of the Christian Bible, then the possibility does exist of this being one of the oldest money making cons in history. Who makes the most money from a 'the end is near' con? Could it be the church? (We've had a couple of these in our life time, most have ZERO, but we had two within ten years.)
Naturally, I've no way of knowing for sure, but this sure rang true and the correlation with the other Asian system really was incredible. (Time wave zero.)
Could the Mayan art correlations from Cotterell's theory, and Ian's amazingly detailed evolution maps of planet earth be true or "NO WAY"? One thing cannot be denied we, the whites, did steal a lot from these people and they, at a minimum, inherited from the Olmecs. (We 'stole' because we do not give them credit for anything other than being a bunch of brown people making clay bowls. The lack of apparent Olmec references in the Mayan glyphs hints they too may have forgotten to give proper credit, but make no mistake the proposition that the pyramids are just a 'mystery' is just plain silly. These people were brilliant and could do things with their brains that we still cannot; perhaps naturally due to having a pure environment and an ideographic language as with the Chinese. IMHO, another major dumbing down came with the creation of languages that were phonetic instead of ideographic limiting the development of our brains when young. Then, much later worst of all English, which may have, by design, stepped on some Spiritual needs.
Here is a taste of the work of Maurice Cottrell, and engineer that studied the Mayan art from an out of the box perspective. In other words without all the sometimes baggage from what we think we know; there are many times when the obvious escapes us when we're standing on the shoulders of someone who made a basic mistake. This man's work is worthy of a separate page so here I'll just give a taste of what he discovered; it's amazing and the implications are some capabilities that Mayan brain had that we no longer possess. (They had no clear plastic to help to see these images; they viewed, and composed these composite images in their heads.)
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Is it getting Windy in here?
There is not a person on the planet more aptly named and alas, I fear where certain physical attributes with which she was born will lead; who knows, perhaps G-d will fix everything on this planet before we find out. She too has 'friends' that she does not know and is sadly missing the best friend we all should have. The best friend that has helped me through tough times; that friend, of course, is G-d and while I've no doubt where I'm going I do fear for her as she has consistently shown a pattern of lying and manipulations. Most recently, I'd bet, she manipulated her mothers wishes in more than the single area that I was aware. Coincidentally, of course, mom was coached into putting her will into separate pieces of paper saying what she wanted each family member to have. As "luck" would have it there was not a single piece of paper for her first born son; seems to have gotten "lost" I'm sure.
"Those who do not learn from mistakes from the past are doomed to repeat them." Those who dwell there will have mixed bags depending on their life. Personally like most parents, I have tons of incredibly great history of past wonders, events and love in which to dwell for short, but wonderful vacations. My history since the birth of the kids was of predominantly wonderful experiences in getting to be the primary caregiver for two wonderful daughters. Indeed I was blessed twice with what most men will ever be and even given the opportunity to create other 'children' known as software packaged of which I'm also very proud; it's funny how letting go of some of the more complicated systems too was sometimes very difficult.
However, there have been so many twisted poisons spread by this person who is literally my blood sister, and most recently at the worst possible time. It's hard to understand how we could come not only from the same parents, but also raised under the same roof. Now the staying under this “roof” was not easy for either of us and without a doubt, she had the worst part of it, but I too had to leave this "roof" at the tender and foolish age of 16.
However, as she did not tell anyone about those horrors until late, the forgiveness, on my part, that has been key in our relationship was not based thereon, as it had with Viki's and Niki's issues with sexuality. Her unmitigated selfishness, perhaps a result of her relationship with her step-father and utter lack of respect for the desires, needs and rights of others, and last, but certainly not having not having a discernible ethics model or boundaries; in short being able to justify almost anything. (Not to mention a rather lopsided concept of giving and taking.)
As a result of something along the way, there always existed an uncertainty as to what she would do, how she would react; too often it resulted in danger or pain in others that most would have been able to anticipate and too often it involved a lack of regard for the feelings of my girls. There's one group of feelings that any parent can never forget and are those are the ones that result in pain by our children. Curiously, this same deep seated fear of unpredictability existed with our biological father and was the reason he was kept far away from my babies; and I knew he would never enjoy having a relationship therewith as there was no way one could risk them having the pain endured by my younger brother and I to a lessor degree.
Examples are once when we returned from our first trip away from Courtney, and were anxiously anticipating being reunited with our recently born treasure. However when we arrived we learn Wendy had stopped by, told the dear friend and mother, Julie Ledson, that she had been given our permission, to take our baby on a plane out of state to see her grandparents. A call by the way, she never bothered to make as she knew fully well would have never been approved.
On another occasion, Courtney had gotten Wendy this orange snake like ring and naturally to her it was a very special gift. After Wendy had been presented with the gift, picked out and bought by Courtney herself, an incredibly thoughtful deed for a 7 year old, the event turned to tears when Wendy went off and left it laying on the counter. I still recall Courtney bringing it to me in tears wondering why she did not want it and then the many times that Jordan was left in pain wondering what was wrong with her and why only Courtney was picked up to go 'shopping'. It was not like she wanted to hurt their feelings; it was like what they were thinking never entered her thought process. It was still very frustrating picking up the pieces and exclusive shopping trips were actually dealt with in a positive manner by mom taking Jordan out for her special occasions. This one struck home to me recalling how Wendy was picked up for special trips to see her step grandmother and I left home; they were doing things like cooking and sewing, I later found out, but at the time I did feel very slighted. Mom was the best mom and Grandma she could be, but her patience with small children was very limited.
Linda and I had many conversations on my feelings and misgiving as to why my kids were closer to her, all the way in Arizona, than to their relatives in Walnut Creek who saw time spent as babysitting. Part of it was job situations and the other part was they were too young to go shopping or to the beauty shops. For some reason these were the only two activities my mom felt comfortable taking them and after 'Reviving Ophelia' had crossed my reading list, I attempted to stop or severely limit these actions as it was felt the 'beauty trips' were giving the message they were not good enough the way they were and needed things to be whole. It was also my opinion that relationships based on material things were shallow and at that point following the incident / scene at Scott's Seafood had produced some incredibly negative 'punishments', not the least of which was Wendy failing to tell me that my grandmother was telling people that I had stolen from her. (i)
This was twisted by Wendy into "Shopping is bad for you.", or “having your nails done was bad for you" and this was not even close, but a hair of truth was there, it seemed, to allow the rancid gossip to stick. There was also a time when Wally had been pouring fuel on any flame; via planting ill words and deeds; sowing seeds of discontent and there did exist fears of it affecting Jordan who was already under fire.
How Wendy could be so filled with spite, hatred and apparent arrogance, despite her accomplishments is something that's evaded me to this very day. With both a poor memory, little light in the area of ethics, and never taking responsibility, has made understanding from where she's coming very difficult to ascertain at times. The recent poisons and ridicule, all but confirming the 'diagnosis' of my ex-wife.
Wendy has always had the most incredible nerve that makes one literally frightened to get too close; it's sort of strange as her father evoked very similar feelings as his reactions too were well beyond predictions and frequently would involve great pain. The alcohol the two of them share, IMHO, added to these similarities, but she is much more like him than her mother as mom's did have a heart. Unless someone was spinning her very vulnerable emotions as clearly happened on several occasions to mom. The first time this became very clear was during Courtney's High school graduation party where Wally had coached her into saying, as they made their entrance, "We just stopped by to get something to eat." Being this was a special occasion for her grand-daughter, this seemed unusually mean and was far out of character for her. Earlier in the day he make it very clear he was using her as his personal chauffeur as they arrived to Acalanes with Satanos sitting in the back seat with her driving him around; he was quite good at pushing my buttons and it never ceased to amaze me why she stayed with him considering his priorities.
This unpredictability, for lack of a better word, first manifested when we had gone to Hawaii and left our newborn baby, Courtney, with the a person we trusted deeply. Wendy, went over and told her we had given her permission to take Courtney to Phoenix and off she went with our baby. At this stage of her life we would NEVER have trusted her to take care of our cats, let alone our baby, and she deceives our friend to get control of the family jewel. Can you imagine returning home where you've first been without your newborn for an entire week. The anticipation at the airport, the ride home, the arrival only to find not, only is your baby unavailable, but has been taken out of the state.
The various public scenes she's created when her expectations were not met; it was due to this that we decided to limit our public exposure with her. Wendy, well being who she is, actually attempted to crash one of our private birthday parties. (This was directly due to the public scenes made when she learned we would be dividing up the $450, bill from Scott's Seafood in Walnut Creek, and she began throwing the silverware around in her anger at our not picking up her tab.)
She actually called our marriage counselor, Denny, and told her "she knew my problem; I did not like women." She had deduced this, apparently, from my having trouble with her perpetually lying and attempting to manipulate me; she shared this ridiculous opinion with Courtney too, but naturally left off the reason. In fact she told Court it was because she had been deeply hurt at my asking her if she has been the one that turned in the picture that had black and blue chalk marks on the backs of Courts legs. She had never been accused of anything, but was asked and it was very clear from her reaction that she was telling the truth. Our family with all it's faults, did not have the spinelessness of most of Viki's family. Also completely and utterly without brains, spines or ethics; Bud aside. (At least those raised under the Helen Gene and it was too bad that Bud Lampert did not assert his qualities as an engineer, as he was the single person in their family with an ounce of ethics and spine that I could find; not an ounce of sneakiness either.) He did not like my stupid habit of telling people who they were and lack of a formal college degree, but he did pop some circular quizzes upon me once the results of which seemed to impress him; he was clearly a brilliant man and despite his occasional rudeness, I respected his integrity as well and him as a person.
The other fear we had was Wendy teaching the girls to lie to us when her desires clashed with the rules. The last time this happened it resulted in Jordan, who had just been taught by her “friends” to use suicide as a parent control tool, but was being allowed to visit her aunt. Who then allowed Jordan to go over to a boys house, completely unchaperoned and coming back stoned on Marijuana. It never occurred to her that what I did not like was quite simply sneaky and lying manipulators. Or did it? It's not like we never spoke of this and once she told me that "You make me lie." as in "Ask me no questions and I'll tell you no lies." Once he found where I had lied not only about my name, but also my age on the Internet and she made it a point to reply.
The counselor Denny told us she told Wendy, “Your problems with Tim have nothing whatsoever to do with Tim's problems with Viki", but I'm sure Wendy did not get this admonishment and Denny, it seemed, had an agenda of her own and it certainly low on the list was repairing any marital problems as she too could not see the OCD Viki was manifesting all over the place. She too seemed to throw salt onto any wounds that came up, apparently to make them worse. There is another document where these were itemized; at one point she was directly questioned on why she exaggerated a problem instead of playing it down and she replied “I'm a right brain counselor instead of the left brain.”; it was odd that she could not just answer the question.
Wendy said, "You were going around bragging that you were a millionaire." How this myth originated is somewhat speculative, but when it was heard I about fell out of my chair; clearly another hate induced spin job; what did happen is the following. During a discussion with the dearest man in our entire family, my main father figure who was technically grandfather late in his life, "Pepa", he told me, "Now Timmy, you save your money!" To which I replied, "Pepa don't you worry about that a bit. I've just type all our assets into a computer and it added up to over a million dollars." To this he said, "A million dollars?, well why don't you send me some?" in a joking voice.
Someone had later told me that he went around bragging that his grandson was a millionaire and I believe Mema assumed that I'd had just told him this out of thin air; there were many ill feelings surrounding Pepa's death and from there the myth took on a life of it's own. This was my first lesson that not all your loving relatives were happy to see you do well financially; this was a very confusing concept for my brain.
The first time it was passed on to me was from my aunt Linda, with whom, before Pepa's passing I had always been close; during Pepa's final days I was to hear hateful reactions and feelings from my second and third "moms", Mema and Linda, that had never theretofore been felt; pains that I'd never before thought them capable of inflicting. "So I hear you're a millionaire." Linda said in a very sarcastic tone; I was then clueless as to what she was even speaking of. It seemed very odd that although not a single person had heard me make such brags in my entire life, that all of a sudden they would start. What was very perplexing and even disappointing was that certain people in the family seemed jealous and not happy for what we had accomplished. Deductive reasoning seemed to be in short supply in my family.
Wendy said, "You were saying that Dana trained her dog to pee on just your foot." While this had the desired affect of adding to the 'crazy' theme; it too was twisted. This derived from an incident where Jordan and I were in the back yard at Wally's house and Dana came outside with her new and very jealous dog. For a reason soon to be illuminated, Dana decided to almost get in my lap with and apparent sudden desire for closeness, to me of all people. Anyone with a dog IQ of over say 10, could tell you that if one has a dog with this known behavior, a form of jealousy, the way to trigger this behavior would be to stand very close to the target. Dana and Wally's response were the telling events, the first was Dana's complete silence after the deed and Jordan said, "Gosh, if my dog had done that to someone I would have been so embarrassed and apologizing all over the place. Then Wally and Dana walked over to the gate and Wally sniped in his loudest voice, "Well then let's give him some more water." in one of his usual and classic jabs.
(i) Although Mema denied ever using the word "stole", at the time I believed Jimmy who was saying it; words do not describe the pain this belief that I was capable of stealing from my blind grandmother provoked and when it was learned that Wendy had known and did not tell me, I was again devastated and shocked. Her initial 'reason' for not having told me was that 'we were not speaking at that tine', but a few years later it morphed into "you knew what had happened at Mema's" and this was completely correct. Just a month after returning from the Phoenix trip Mema had called Mom and told her that she never said that I could take Pepa's ancient and very inexpensive hunting rifles and some fishing gear we had together; she also neglected to mention that she had given me an old optomistrists set and some things she said Linda had set aside; again items whose only value was due to what Pepa and I had together and nothing of value.
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From: tim
To: Wendy Hughes
Subject:have you considered you could benefit
Date: Aug 9, 2009 2:19 AM
Wendy,
From the fact you might have serious issues with men in general and it pops out in the form of insecurities and/or taking it out on whoever is convenient? Considering the number of misfires you've had in relationships, I'd consider looking at this as honestly as possible. Viki had, as a small kid, problems with the only two males in her life; I'm fairly sure she too has issues in this area and also in areas of not being naturally maternal. Never voiced problems with my complete involvement with the girls and in party situations was always very appreciative of the wrong kind of attention from other men. Friends actually mentioned both items to me; their wives noticed the apparent lack of a maternal bond with the girls that they had with their girls. To me it was surprising she had no problems with Courtney being with a much older man during college.
This is probably why Jordan is still having problems as the deepest bonds were with ME until she was brainwashed with BS about my mental health. (Again, Viki's UNCLE, who knew NOTHING about what happened, told me what was happening with the harassment. However not enough information though to fix it as I then had the wrong idea as to WHY it was happening.)
FACT: The only difference between a delusional/paranoid person and a person being harassed is one is imagining the harassment; ask any psychologist we're called 'Targeted Individuals'. This latest threat you drug the girls into had a witness; as did many other earlier events. (Yes I know you could not care less; that is not my point; the point here is, as you were unwilling/unable to read the literature, please refrain from empty opinions to the girls. They have no idea as to your complete lack of education and high school vocabulary, as became clear when you could not understand the Mobbing aspect of these crimes.)
I'm the one Jordan used to run to, day or night; I'm the one upon which she heaped her happiness or dumped her tears or anger, day or night, even during the teen years when she would sleep next to my side of the bed. Have you forgotten she and I, doing homework during the summer of the 6th grade, and her getting on the honor role the next year at WCI? (Did you even know?) I've a hard time believing you never noticed her coming to me even when Viki was there.
With Jordan you cannot simply ask "how are you doing", unless you're very close. The way I saw you giving her "tough advice" on the porch one day, I'm sure any closeness evaporated as you seemed to have lost all empathy skills for other people. Wendy and mom have symptoms straight out of a mind control manual. Why else would mom say "Tim is part of a group that wants to overthrow the US government?" She also said other things that were far out of character for her; VERY FAR.
I'd bet big money one of these two things is true with you as the bad stuff that happened to you, happened when you were very young and by someone in complete power and scary as he WAS very physical. It must have scared you to death hearing me get beaten; think about how a young girl would process the sounds of her brother getting strapped and yelling out in pain? I'd talk to a psychologist about it as it likely traumatized you thinking it could happen to you and is probably why you kept your mouth shut; you sublimated it out of fear. Exploring and reframing incidents such as these can be very helpful. Perhaps, in some kid way, you blame me for being a boy scout or not seeing what was going on? After all that I've done for you and ZIPPO in the other direction all this animosity makes no sense. NONE. ZIP. ZERO. NATA.
How else can you explain the one way expectations and treatment you've doled out to the ONE MALE that provide forms of protections and support? (This also applied to Desi, but I've not done much for him; per say, except be his brother. It was not deliberate protection, but it was protection never the less as you did say "I used to dread Tuesdays because that's when you had boy scouts and Don would have access."
Wendy, there's a huge difference between exploring/understanding cause/effect and 'dwelling' on the past as during events like these things get pushed into the subconscious and can come out in other harmful ways. I truly believe this is still hurting your relationships. How many times can you count that my paranoia has been wrong? ZERO?
The same person that gave you a place to live, coming to your aid whenever you called, for whatever reason, regardless of your rather less that honest behavior and complete lack of reciprocity. (Your "I thought you'd not love me if I told you the truth". "You make me lie" comments come to mind. Did you really think if you told me that you did not put gas in the Bronco due to being cheap?
I dunno if you turned these things around to cause pain or if you had help, but the issues you brought up during mom's last days were extremely hurtful as was finding out she had been crying for four days in the hospital fearing her death when I did not even know. Thank G-d Jordan answered her phone that day.
Also, why you mentioned the reason she stayed alive for four days as she was waiting for me, but waited until she had died to tell me this. Do you understand why you did this?
The rest of the story was that in August time frame I had been able to successfully cut my pain patches in HALF by cutting my physical activities. However, it still meant when I sat for hours in a car my back would develop the knife and I'd be in big time pain. As it turned out this was a bad time to do this, but it was suggested by a very good doctor in Santa Cruz and I took her up on it.
-T
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From: tim
To: Wendy Hughes
Cc: Courtney Anderson , Jordan Anderson , "sharmon2@mindspring.com" , "pspeh@yahoo.com"
Subject: Re: What made you think that Jordan got a call?
Date: Aug 9, 2009 2:19 AM
Wendy,
I really pity you having all this left over hate from whoever about which you seem to delude yourself. You wrote below you don't "dwell upon the past", but then what happened the last days of our mom's life when you dredged up 20 year old garbage, twisted it and threw it in my already hurting face? (And then denied your mom's side of the story to boot, when mom said "It was not what you said, but how you said it". You were believing it the way you wanted to and that was that. You ignored moms final requests in so many ways; she became like Pepa and you became the opposite spitting hate and L I E S (i)) You then dredged up 10 year old poisons from Dana and threw that in my face; just for fun I guess. (Or perhaps it made you sleep better at night at something that happened behind the scenes with Wally?) I was curious as to why you stood there while Wally lied about my not having seen mom in six months when you knew full well I had just been there for her birthday. (Not her last one that from which I was excluded; the one before when Satanos made the scene in the hospital when I asked him if he'd make sure mom would get a decent doctor this time.)
Your apparent inability to read the above question in the subject and misinterpreting it as insinuating you were AGAIN lying is somewhat understood, but only due to the number of times you have lied to me. (This was why Viki suggested I TAPE your conversation and she was correct as you don't just lie you are a liar. If the truth does not feel good then you might want to change this habit of yours; you're a little old to still have this as a habit and it WILL affect your work relationships if people cannot trust you.)
You've not returned calls because there was nothing in it for you, or so you perceived and you had to lie, AGAIN, to justify that. During our last telephone conversation you told about your trips, being sick 10 times, and my only other request was to really find out how Jordan was doing. (ie. NOT JUST A LAZY "HOW ARE YOU?" PHONE CALL, TO DO SOMETHING HAVE A DEEP CONVERSATION; as hard as that is for you, I know.)
The only calls I've EVER gotten from you was when you needed something; like Dreamweaver, interfacing your Realtor file, help with your web site, paying your tabs, etc. etc.; this is nothing new and has defined our relationship since you moved here; G-d gave me a sister like you to assist with my forgiveness skills; you've certainly helped with those; after all the lying you've inflicted upon me just since you've been in
CAL you've certainly helped me with my self esteem in this area and for that I must thank you!
However dragging the kids into your selfish hate and lie fest was over the top, well for most people anyway. You've NEVER been predictable and this is why you have trouble with relationships. (You have your father's temper and deep seated hate issues and they were even exhibited in the email in one line while being denied in the next. See purple highlighted LIES BELOW.)
into your little temper tantrum of stupidity was over the top and only caused them damage. Not everyone has had a screwed up relationship with their father(s) and other men in their life as you have always have, so perhaps your ignorance is partially to blame.
"Hell hath no wrath of a women scorned"
You're likely still hurting over our turning down your offers in ~2000 of having 'family' dinners with you and Rich. Sorry, it was not meant to hurt but I did not want your behaviors of throwing fits or lying to rub off on my kids and lets face it you and Rich were not exactly family with him being unwilling to even marry you.
They, I'm very sure, will be unable to make the same excuses as you're still able to make and will be honest adults regardless of the bad examples deviating from this they did receive from family.
I know this because THEY have GOOD HEARTS and good consciences! They, like ALL others, will not be perfect, but they'll be better than most of the adults around here that seem to think lying is a skill set to be refined.
I cannot say there would not be a thing or two I'd change, if given the opportunity, but overall I'm quite proud of the way I raised them, with lots of quality time and attention that I know reflects on the extremely good way they have with taking care of kids and in other ways I'm sure. "Always tell the truth" etc. etc.
You also need to also recognize that most people, have mostly GOOD things from the past upon which to "DWELL" and the way you treat me one would think I had something to do with your ill childhood. You'd think that I never came to your aid the dozen or more times you needed it, and then waste my time or ignored what I said and got screwed anyway. (NOT THAT YOU SHOULD DWELL ON IT; BUT DO NOT DELUDE YOURSELF EITHER; THIS IS WHY YOU KEEP GETTING RIPPED OFF by "FRIENDS". LOL! Some 'friends'.)
WILL YOU EVER LEARN???
(Very, VERY SMALL LIE LIST)
(i) Claimed I said,
a) "Dana trained her dog to pee on just my foot." L I E.
b) "Bragged to Pepa about being a millionaire." L I E.
c) Claimed to not dwell on the past HELLO?? How do you spell DOE DOE BIRD ? L I E, you displayed same in this very email .
d) Claimed I was 'paranoid' for warning you about loaning your money to Stan even though he RIPPED YOU? HELLO?
e) Claimed Farrell Nelson said "You'd see me on TV". (Farrell denied anything of the sort.)
You are so stuck in the past or it would not keep dribbling out of your mouth and behaviors. Have you seen anyone that behaves like you?
IF YOU DO NOT WANT YOUR ILL DEEDS GOING AROUND THEN PLEASE LEAVE ME OUT OF YOUR HALLUCINATIONS and LIES!
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To: jordan anderson, courtney
Cc: Wendy Hughes
Subject: RE: What made you think that Jordan got a call?
Date: Jun 3, 2009 3:28 PMI hope you can see that the 'officer' worded her questions so that you could tell the truth and she could get out of doing her job. (This was reported to internal affairs as I put everything in writing FIRST.) She was told EXACTLY what I thought had happened and still designed her questions so that you'd say nothing happened. Knowing full well you likely do not know about voice spoofing/bugging at your age and covering up for this FELONY criminal act using a telephonic device; also told her I'd take a Brain Fingerprint to prove it.
If you want me to take responsibility for calling you, and that will make you happy then consider it done. However, make no mistake, that it's only now that I've lied or deceived you, as only Nicolette has stooped that low up to this point.
However, having said that it's also common knowledge that forgiving people for their transgressions is the best policy for each of us as holding grudges only will eat at us from the inside. It's just not worth beating others up over past hurts as it results in stress in the person doing it. (That's why it says 'forgive us our tresspasses as we forgive others of theirs' in the Bibles.)
(Chorus)
I love you both and would NEVER do anything that would hurt you and anyone knows that telling a kid bad things about a parent, true or false, only hurts the kid.
Sorry, for repeating and I fully understand why you would think what you thought considering it was in my voice. I dunno exactly what was played back to you, but do know things were said in the heat of the battle of divorce. This was in the privacy of my office and only to other friends during the divorce.
with love,
-----Original Message-----
>From: jordan anderson
>Sent: May 29, 2009 11:49 AM
>To: Wendy Hughes, taa@ix.netcom.com, aunteewendy@yahoo.comCc: courtney anderson
Subject: RE: What made you think that Jordan got a call?
A man once told me, "always tell the truth!" and so when the police called asking me if I have received any calls or messages that were strange or threatening I told her no I haven't, because that's the TRUTH! Maybe you should check your "source" before you start falsely accusing people! I would give you a copy of my phone records to prove this to you...if I cared! Its NOT worth my time and it shouldn't be worth yours either, but we all know that you do what you want. Its unfortunate that you have this notion that people are out to get you and dedicated to ruining your life, I cant imagine what that must be like...
-----Original Message-----
>From: Wendy Hughes
>Sent: May 29, 2009 10:39 AM
>To: t
>Cc: Courtney Anderson , Jordan Anderson
>Subject: Re: What made you think that Jordan got a call?
>
>Tim:
>
>Stop
>this insanity. I have not called you back because I do not feel it is
>necessary. I don't have time to rehash everything that has ever
>happened in your life. I have no idea what any of this is about, nor do
>I care. Courtney and Jordan are doing great. None of this has any
>credence and it a waste of time.
>Regarding the phones calls you said
>came from Rich and I, the ones where I was ripped a new one and called
>a liar; they were probably the same kind that are occurring to people
>all over the planet. It's called pocket calls. Calls accidently made by
>sitting on your phone or inadvertently pressing the call button. I have
>actually received a few from you while you were driving somewhere with
>Jordan, a very long time ago.
>
>
>You have left several messages on Jordan's voice mail over the past several years. I obviously don't know what they were.
>Only what either Jordan or Viki told me. So please stop insinuating
>that I lied and said something that wasn't said. I'm tired of these
>emails that are copied to everyone on the planet, so please remove me
>from your list.
>
>I choose NOT to dwell on the past, so you can think whatever you want about me and my life. Frankly I don't give a damn.
>
>
>________________________________
>From: t
>To: Wendy Hughes ; Deda Darling
>Sent: Friday, May 29, 2009 5:27:27 AM
>Subject: What made you think that Jordan got a call?
>
>Trashing her mom? I've filed a police report as Richard told me he got several text messages from me that were not sent. Another message from an old activist
>friend gave me the impression he'd received a radical message from me
>regarding politics and I now have to wonder if that was spoofed.
>
>Surely
>you can see the multi-million dollar law firm having to go under due to
>an 'enhancement' to a program they had me make and suddenly all the
>harassment makes sense. what I knew was a threat to them and my boss,
>the only other person knowing about the software is now dead.
>
>Recently,
>while moving from Ida's a person first threatened me and then attempted
>to crash my RV at highway speeds; I've been remiss for not filing police reports.
>However, if I file a report and then Jordan tells them nothing happened it does not look good which was the goal all along. Courtney NEVER
>said she thought nothing was going on and like Viki, thought it was all
>related to "Steve Vanbibber". Unless he's able to leverage people in
>the WCPD, Lake Tahoe and the school, this was a ridiculous suggestion.
>
>PLEASE
>GET BACK TO ME ON THIS; these people have, quite successfully smeared
>me with my own family. Why does Linda not return my calls? Does she
>know about the mega million dollar law firm that had to shut down?
>
>Thanks
>for getting back to me on this as I cannot get any traction without
>solid information. Viki and Jordan denied having received any such
>calls.
>
>Regards,
>me
>
>________________________________
>From: t
>To: Wendy Hughes ; Deda Darling
>Sent: Friday, May 29, 2009 5:27:27 AM
>Subject: What made you think that Jordan got a call?
>
>Trashing her mom? I've filed a police report as Richard told me he got several text messages from me that were not sent. Another message from an old activist friend gave me the impression he'd received a radical message from me regarding politics and I now have to wonder if that was spoofed.
>
>Surely you can see the multi-million dollar law firm having to go under due to an 'enhancement' to a program they had me make and suddenly all the harassment makes sense. what I knew was a threat to them and my boss, the only other person knowing about the software is now dead.
>
>Recently, while moving from Ida's a person first threatened me and then attempted to crash my RV at highway speeds; I've been remiss for not filing police reports. However, if I file a report and then Jordan tells them nothing happened it does not look good which was the goal all along. Courtney NEVER said she thought nothing was going on and like Viki, thought it was all related to "Steve Vanbibber". Unless he's able to leverage people in the WCPD, Lake Tahoe and the school, this was a ridiculous suggestion.
>
>PLEASE GET BACK TO ME ON THIS; these people have, quite successfully smeared me with my own family. Why does Linda not return my calls? Does she know about the mega million dollar law firm that had to shut down?
>
>Thanks for getting back to me on this as I cannot get any traction without solid information. Viki and Jordan denied having received any such calls.
>
>Regards,
>me
>
From: tim
To: wendyahughes@yahoo.com
Subject: Communicating
Date: Jul 24, 2009 1:12 AM
Wendy,
There are many other reasons for someone to be attacked that their having done something *wrong*, as you should know better than MOST. Jealousy, slanderous hate mongering, mental health problems, finding corruption to name a few.
Courtney and Jordan, (& you) were attacked by *strangers* and they had done NOTHING. Some people get high on power trips over others; it's a sickness.
What if someone said to you, "You MUST have done something" to have happen to you what happened to you by Don? THINK ABOUT IT.
When I, a couple of years ago, mentioned a real fear I had about Don, before I could even get it out, you jumped to the conclusion that I was 'throwing something in your face'. [You were never for a moment, concerned about your nieces being put at risk; only about your own personal feelings? It's no wonder you do not understand me my reaction would have been the exact opposite.]
That was an incorrect conclusion, [it was not about you], but we never even got there because of your usual over-reaction.
The reason was picking up Courtney from having stayed with him for a few hours in an afternoon and finding her CRYING.
I'm not saying a meaningful life cannot be had or that I want your pity, just understanding and reasonable judgments, if you must, based on the facts. ALL THE FACTS.
Have you been bedridden due to having what feels like a knife in your back because you walked too far, sat too long in a car, both, and/or lifted too much?
Or having to take 24/7 pain medication and then pain pills when the above happens?
Do you suppose this is where the 'Don't judge a person until you've walked two moons in their moccasins" came from?
Wendy, considering your background, one really wonders how you feel comfortable judging ANYONE; you're certainly in NO superior position to anyone, except perhaps Don.
When we last spoke I tried to relate a very old feeling I and before it could even complete, you were telling me what I could have/should have done. I was unable to even finish the part where I thought MY FEELINGS were wrong and you were telling me
advice. Lacking was the ability to even hear me out let along try to understand what I was saying. I *sincerely* hope I'm the only one who triggers this reaction.
When I last saw you ancient 20+ year old poisons were "rehashed", to use your word, into my face you would not even listen or could not hear the rest of the story. All of it had been twisted
in one way or another and I DO NOT THINK IT WAS YOU.
If a car had been involved, instead of words, it would be called 'hit and run'.
What happened to the person that had feelings, emotions and empathy?
Just a year or so before your feelings were OK enough to allow me to help you with your website and or software. What happened in the interim?
You seem to react before someone can even get the entire thought out let alone trying to look at someones ELSE'S feelings through their eyes. This is crucial in relationships.
If you approach Jordan with this approach that seems to lack, completely, empathy, you will shut her down.
She NEEDS as many ppl as possible that love her like I know you both do to understand what she's been through with the 'excuses' she has. Including the 'OCD traits' that started her last year at Los Lomas.
When you have the opportunity to talk to her just listen, and talk about your experiences, how they made you feel. Otherwise she'll think your going to judge her and tell her what to do and just avoid talking to you.
Please ask Linda about my old 'complaints' to her about my kids not being close to you or mom.
This should ring a bell as to how true your current belief system is. Katie too was told about some of it, but she could not recall and with Linda taking those SSRIs I'm afraid she too might not recall, but she might. Unless you prefer to believe these poisons that were inculcated by Wally and misunderstandings as well. You know my memory has always been better than yours, and it's beyond
me as to why you'd want to maintain the garbage you threw at me during our mom's passing of all times.
And you want to imply or state I have mental problems? (Sudden, adult onset, LOL!) You've had these "MEN" mental problems since you were a kid and with good reason, but why put them off onto others?
>
>--- On Thu, 3/5/09, t wrote as a direct result of very petty, but unfounded judging, hate and poison slinging during mom's last days. Not to mention being left out of mom having been hospitalized for four days crying in fear, and finding out through Jordan.
>
>> From: t
>> Subject: Judge not lest ye not be judged
>> To: "Wendy Hughes"
>> Cc: "court"
>> Date: Thursday, March 5, 2009, 3:27 AM
>> Other issues of which you were unaware around the time of
>> mom's demise:
>>
>> 1) All the keys to the vehicles that to which I had access
>> were found removed one day.
>> 2) I was told by her brother in law that the "next
>> week I'd find my stuff out in the street." It was
>> raining. (I had put blankets in the RV should I come
>> 'home' and find the locks had been changed.(The
>> brakes had been tampered with.) He also attempted to scare
>> me with physical threats; lunging at me and when I did not
>> move he just said, "MOVE". He was a former "gang banger" about >> 350 lbs. and thought after all
>> the threats I was afraid of HIM.)
>> 3) My personal survival was threatened by all these mental
>> games, not to mention low income, at the end and at the
>> worst possible time. I was an emotional wreck you may recall
>> I "cared so little about mom" and my only support
>> had also been pulled when the news of Danny came in. Ida
>> turned into a ruthless "B" over "stuff", but her
>> sisters political career is set I'm sure. Watsonville
>> will have an Akimoto/Belgard politician real soon.
>> 4) It became obvious every time I went away my things were
>> being rifled through. (Having trust dashed against the rocks is hard.)
>> 5) A gun appears to have been switched with one that does
>> not match that which was returned by WCPD. What's the
>> history of my 'new' gun?
>>
>> All this with my long time ADHD did not add up to clear
>> thinking and 'hurting back' is an understatement; it
>> was 2 day recovery from that trip.
>>
>> Of course, again, as you say, I'm the common
>> denominator as anyone targeted by having been blacklisted
>> would be. Is that not kind of obvious? It was not to you.
>> how can you judge if you were afraid of even looking at the
>> evidence?
>>
>> Did you also avoid the negative evidence on your loans?
>
"Those who do not learn from mistakes from the past are doomed to repeat them." Those who dwell there will have mixed bags depending on their life. Personally like most parents, I have tons of incredibly great history of past wonders, events and love in which to dwell for short, but wonderful vacations. My history since the birth of the kids was of predominantly wonderful experiences in getting to be the primary caregiver for two wonderful daughters. Indeed I was blessed twice with what most men will ever be and even given the opportunity to create other 'children' known as software packaged of which I'm also very proud; it's funny how letting go of some of the more complicated systems too was sometimes very difficult.
However, there have been so many twisted poisons spread by this person who is literally my blood sister, and most recently at the worst possible time. It's hard to understand how we could come not only from the same parents, but also raised under the same roof. Now the staying under this “roof” was not easy for either of us and without a doubt, she had the worst part of it, but I too had to leave this "roof" at the tender and foolish age of 16.
However, as she did not tell anyone about those horrors until late, the forgiveness, on my part, that has been key in our relationship was not based thereon, as it had with Viki's and Niki's issues with sexuality. Her unmitigated selfishness, perhaps a result of her relationship with her step-father and utter lack of respect for the desires, needs and rights of others, and last, but certainly not having not having a discernible ethics model or boundaries; in short being able to justify almost anything. (Not to mention a rather lopsided concept of giving and taking.)
As a result of something along the way, there always existed an uncertainty as to what she would do, how she would react; too often it resulted in danger or pain in others that most would have been able to anticipate and too often it involved a lack of regard for the feelings of my girls. There's one group of feelings that any parent can never forget and are those are the ones that result in pain by our children. Curiously, this same deep seated fear of unpredictability existed with our biological father and was the reason he was kept far away from my babies; and I knew he would never enjoy having a relationship therewith as there was no way one could risk them having the pain endured by my younger brother and I to a lessor degree.
Examples are once when we returned from our first trip away from Courtney, and were anxiously anticipating being reunited with our recently born treasure. However when we arrived we learn Wendy had stopped by, told the dear friend and mother, Julie Ledson, that she had been given our permission, to take our baby on a plane out of state to see her grandparents. A call by the way, she never bothered to make as she knew fully well would have never been approved.
On another occasion, Courtney had gotten Wendy this orange snake like ring and naturally to her it was a very special gift. After Wendy had been presented with the gift, picked out and bought by Courtney herself, an incredibly thoughtful deed for a 7 year old, the event turned to tears when Wendy went off and left it laying on the counter. I still recall Courtney bringing it to me in tears wondering why she did not want it and then the many times that Jordan was left in pain wondering what was wrong with her and why only Courtney was picked up to go 'shopping'. It was not like she wanted to hurt their feelings; it was like what they were thinking never entered her thought process. It was still very frustrating picking up the pieces and exclusive shopping trips were actually dealt with in a positive manner by mom taking Jordan out for her special occasions. This one struck home to me recalling how Wendy was picked up for special trips to see her step grandmother and I left home; they were doing things like cooking and sewing, I later found out, but at the time I did feel very slighted. Mom was the best mom and Grandma she could be, but her patience with small children was very limited.
Linda and I had many conversations on my feelings and misgiving as to why my kids were closer to her, all the way in Arizona, than to their relatives in Walnut Creek who saw time spent as babysitting. Part of it was job situations and the other part was they were too young to go shopping or to the beauty shops. For some reason these were the only two activities my mom felt comfortable taking them and after 'Reviving Ophelia' had crossed my reading list, I attempted to stop or severely limit these actions as it was felt the 'beauty trips' were giving the message they were not good enough the way they were and needed things to be whole. It was also my opinion that relationships based on material things were shallow and at that point following the incident / scene at Scott's Seafood had produced some incredibly negative 'punishments', not the least of which was Wendy failing to tell me that my grandmother was telling people that I had stolen from her. (i)
This was twisted by Wendy into "Shopping is bad for you.", or “having your nails done was bad for you" and this was not even close, but a hair of truth was there, it seemed, to allow the rancid gossip to stick. There was also a time when Wally had been pouring fuel on any flame; via planting ill words and deeds; sowing seeds of discontent and there did exist fears of it affecting Jordan who was already under fire.
How Wendy could be so filled with spite, hatred and apparent arrogance, despite her accomplishments is something that's evaded me to this very day. With both a poor memory, little light in the area of ethics, and never taking responsibility, has made understanding from where she's coming very difficult to ascertain at times. The recent poisons and ridicule, all but confirming the 'diagnosis' of my ex-wife.
Wendy has always had the most incredible nerve that makes one literally frightened to get too close; it's sort of strange as her father evoked very similar feelings as his reactions too were well beyond predictions and frequently would involve great pain. The alcohol the two of them share, IMHO, added to these similarities, but she is much more like him than her mother as mom's did have a heart. Unless someone was spinning her very vulnerable emotions as clearly happened on several occasions to mom. The first time this became very clear was during Courtney's High school graduation party where Wally had coached her into saying, as they made their entrance, "We just stopped by to get something to eat." Being this was a special occasion for her grand-daughter, this seemed unusually mean and was far out of character for her. Earlier in the day he make it very clear he was using her as his personal chauffeur as they arrived to Acalanes with Satanos sitting in the back seat with her driving him around; he was quite good at pushing my buttons and it never ceased to amaze me why she stayed with him considering his priorities.
This unpredictability, for lack of a better word, first manifested when we had gone to Hawaii and left our newborn baby, Courtney, with the a person we trusted deeply. Wendy, went over and told her we had given her permission to take Courtney to Phoenix and off she went with our baby. At this stage of her life we would NEVER have trusted her to take care of our cats, let alone our baby, and she deceives our friend to get control of the family jewel. Can you imagine returning home where you've first been without your newborn for an entire week. The anticipation at the airport, the ride home, the arrival only to find not, only is your baby unavailable, but has been taken out of the state.
The various public scenes she's created when her expectations were not met; it was due to this that we decided to limit our public exposure with her. Wendy, well being who she is, actually attempted to crash one of our private birthday parties. (This was directly due to the public scenes made when she learned we would be dividing up the $450, bill from Scott's Seafood in Walnut Creek, and she began throwing the silverware around in her anger at our not picking up her tab.)
She actually called our marriage counselor, Denny, and told her "she knew my problem; I did not like women." She had deduced this, apparently, from my having trouble with her perpetually lying and attempting to manipulate me; she shared this ridiculous opinion with Courtney too, but naturally left off the reason. In fact she told Court it was because she had been deeply hurt at my asking her if she has been the one that turned in the picture that had black and blue chalk marks on the backs of Courts legs. She had never been accused of anything, but was asked and it was very clear from her reaction that she was telling the truth. Our family with all it's faults, did not have the spinelessness of most of Viki's family. Also completely and utterly without brains, spines or ethics; Bud aside. (At least those raised under the Helen Gene and it was too bad that Bud Lampert did not assert his qualities as an engineer, as he was the single person in their family with an ounce of ethics and spine that I could find; not an ounce of sneakiness either.) He did not like my stupid habit of telling people who they were and lack of a formal college degree, but he did pop some circular quizzes upon me once the results of which seemed to impress him; he was clearly a brilliant man and despite his occasional rudeness, I respected his integrity as well and him as a person.
The other fear we had was Wendy teaching the girls to lie to us when her desires clashed with the rules. The last time this happened it resulted in Jordan, who had just been taught by her “friends” to use suicide as a parent control tool, but was being allowed to visit her aunt. Who then allowed Jordan to go over to a boys house, completely unchaperoned and coming back stoned on Marijuana. It never occurred to her that what I did not like was quite simply sneaky and lying manipulators. Or did it? It's not like we never spoke of this and once she told me that "You make me lie." as in "Ask me no questions and I'll tell you no lies." Once he found where I had lied not only about my name, but also my age on the Internet and she made it a point to reply.
The counselor Denny told us she told Wendy, “Your problems with Tim have nothing whatsoever to do with Tim's problems with Viki", but I'm sure Wendy did not get this admonishment and Denny, it seemed, had an agenda of her own and it certainly low on the list was repairing any marital problems as she too could not see the OCD Viki was manifesting all over the place. She too seemed to throw salt onto any wounds that came up, apparently to make them worse. There is another document where these were itemized; at one point she was directly questioned on why she exaggerated a problem instead of playing it down and she replied “I'm a right brain counselor instead of the left brain.”; it was odd that she could not just answer the question.
Wendy said, "You were going around bragging that you were a millionaire." How this myth originated is somewhat speculative, but when it was heard I about fell out of my chair; clearly another hate induced spin job; what did happen is the following. During a discussion with the dearest man in our entire family, my main father figure who was technically grandfather late in his life, "Pepa", he told me, "Now Timmy, you save your money!" To which I replied, "Pepa don't you worry about that a bit. I've just type all our assets into a computer and it added up to over a million dollars." To this he said, "A million dollars?, well why don't you send me some?" in a joking voice.
Someone had later told me that he went around bragging that his grandson was a millionaire and I believe Mema assumed that I'd had just told him this out of thin air; there were many ill feelings surrounding Pepa's death and from there the myth took on a life of it's own. This was my first lesson that not all your loving relatives were happy to see you do well financially; this was a very confusing concept for my brain.
The first time it was passed on to me was from my aunt Linda, with whom, before Pepa's passing I had always been close; during Pepa's final days I was to hear hateful reactions and feelings from my second and third "moms", Mema and Linda, that had never theretofore been felt; pains that I'd never before thought them capable of inflicting. "So I hear you're a millionaire." Linda said in a very sarcastic tone; I was then clueless as to what she was even speaking of. It seemed very odd that although not a single person had heard me make such brags in my entire life, that all of a sudden they would start. What was very perplexing and even disappointing was that certain people in the family seemed jealous and not happy for what we had accomplished. Deductive reasoning seemed to be in short supply in my family.
Wendy said, "You were saying that Dana trained her dog to pee on just your foot." While this had the desired affect of adding to the 'crazy' theme; it too was twisted. This derived from an incident where Jordan and I were in the back yard at Wally's house and Dana came outside with her new and very jealous dog. For a reason soon to be illuminated, Dana decided to almost get in my lap with and apparent sudden desire for closeness, to me of all people. Anyone with a dog IQ of over say 10, could tell you that if one has a dog with this known behavior, a form of jealousy, the way to trigger this behavior would be to stand very close to the target. Dana and Wally's response were the telling events, the first was Dana's complete silence after the deed and Jordan said, "Gosh, if my dog had done that to someone I would have been so embarrassed and apologizing all over the place. Then Wally and Dana walked over to the gate and Wally sniped in his loudest voice, "Well then let's give him some more water." in one of his usual and classic jabs.
(i) Although Mema denied ever using the word "stole", at the time I believed Jimmy who was saying it; words do not describe the pain this belief that I was capable of stealing from my blind grandmother provoked and when it was learned that Wendy had known and did not tell me, I was again devastated and shocked. Her initial 'reason' for not having told me was that 'we were not speaking at that tine', but a few years later it morphed into "you knew what had happened at Mema's" and this was completely correct. Just a month after returning from the Phoenix trip Mema had called Mom and told her that she never said that I could take Pepa's ancient and very inexpensive hunting rifles and some fishing gear we had together; she also neglected to mention that she had given me an old optomistrists set and some things she said Linda had set aside; again items whose only value was due to what Pepa and I had together and nothing of value.
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From: tim
To: Wendy Hughes
Subject:have you considered you could benefit
Date: Aug 9, 2009 2:19 AM
Wendy,
From the fact you might have serious issues with men in general and it pops out in the form of insecurities and/or taking it out on whoever is convenient? Considering the number of misfires you've had in relationships, I'd consider looking at this as honestly as possible. Viki had, as a small kid, problems with the only two males in her life; I'm fairly sure she too has issues in this area and also in areas of not being naturally maternal. Never voiced problems with my complete involvement with the girls and in party situations was always very appreciative of the wrong kind of attention from other men. Friends actually mentioned both items to me; their wives noticed the apparent lack of a maternal bond with the girls that they had with their girls. To me it was surprising she had no problems with Courtney being with a much older man during college.
This is probably why Jordan is still having problems as the deepest bonds were with ME until she was brainwashed with BS about my mental health. (Again, Viki's UNCLE, who knew NOTHING about what happened, told me what was happening with the harassment. However not enough information though to fix it as I then had the wrong idea as to WHY it was happening.)
FACT: The only difference between a delusional/paranoid person and a person being harassed is one is imagining the harassment; ask any psychologist we're called 'Targeted Individuals'. This latest threat you drug the girls into had a witness; as did many other earlier events. (Yes I know you could not care less; that is not my point; the point here is, as you were unwilling/unable to read the literature, please refrain from empty opinions to the girls. They have no idea as to your complete lack of education and high school vocabulary, as became clear when you could not understand the Mobbing aspect of these crimes.)
I'm the one Jordan used to run to, day or night; I'm the one upon which she heaped her happiness or dumped her tears or anger, day or night, even during the teen years when she would sleep next to my side of the bed. Have you forgotten she and I, doing homework during the summer of the 6th grade, and her getting on the honor role the next year at WCI? (Did you even know?) I've a hard time believing you never noticed her coming to me even when Viki was there.
With Jordan you cannot simply ask "how are you doing", unless you're very close. The way I saw you giving her "tough advice" on the porch one day, I'm sure any closeness evaporated as you seemed to have lost all empathy skills for other people. Wendy and mom have symptoms straight out of a mind control manual. Why else would mom say "Tim is part of a group that wants to overthrow the US government?" She also said other things that were far out of character for her; VERY FAR.
I'd bet big money one of these two things is true with you as the bad stuff that happened to you, happened when you were very young and by someone in complete power and scary as he WAS very physical. It must have scared you to death hearing me get beaten; think about how a young girl would process the sounds of her brother getting strapped and yelling out in pain? I'd talk to a psychologist about it as it likely traumatized you thinking it could happen to you and is probably why you kept your mouth shut; you sublimated it out of fear. Exploring and reframing incidents such as these can be very helpful. Perhaps, in some kid way, you blame me for being a boy scout or not seeing what was going on? After all that I've done for you and ZIPPO in the other direction all this animosity makes no sense. NONE. ZIP. ZERO. NATA.
How else can you explain the one way expectations and treatment you've doled out to the ONE MALE that provide forms of protections and support? (This also applied to Desi, but I've not done much for him; per say, except be his brother. It was not deliberate protection, but it was protection never the less as you did say "I used to dread Tuesdays because that's when you had boy scouts and Don would have access."
Wendy, there's a huge difference between exploring/understanding cause/effect and 'dwelling' on the past as during events like these things get pushed into the subconscious and can come out in other harmful ways. I truly believe this is still hurting your relationships. How many times can you count that my paranoia has been wrong? ZERO?
The same person that gave you a place to live, coming to your aid whenever you called, for whatever reason, regardless of your rather less that honest behavior and complete lack of reciprocity. (Your "I thought you'd not love me if I told you the truth". "You make me lie" comments come to mind. Did you really think if you told me that you did not put gas in the Bronco due to being cheap?
I dunno if you turned these things around to cause pain or if you had help, but the issues you brought up during mom's last days were extremely hurtful as was finding out she had been crying for four days in the hospital fearing her death when I did not even know. Thank G-d Jordan answered her phone that day.
Also, why you mentioned the reason she stayed alive for four days as she was waiting for me, but waited until she had died to tell me this. Do you understand why you did this?
The rest of the story was that in August time frame I had been able to successfully cut my pain patches in HALF by cutting my physical activities. However, it still meant when I sat for hours in a car my back would develop the knife and I'd be in big time pain. As it turned out this was a bad time to do this, but it was suggested by a very good doctor in Santa Cruz and I took her up on it.
-T
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From: tim
To: Wendy Hughes
Cc: Courtney Anderson , Jordan Anderson , "sharmon2@mindspring.com" , "pspeh@yahoo.com"
Subject: Re: What made you think that Jordan got a call?
Date: Aug 9, 2009 2:19 AM
Wendy,
I really pity you having all this left over hate from whoever about which you seem to delude yourself. You wrote below you don't "dwell upon the past", but then what happened the last days of our mom's life when you dredged up 20 year old garbage, twisted it and threw it in my already hurting face? (And then denied your mom's side of the story to boot, when mom said "It was not what you said, but how you said it". You were believing it the way you wanted to and that was that. You ignored moms final requests in so many ways; she became like Pepa and you became the opposite spitting hate and L I E S (i)) You then dredged up 10 year old poisons from Dana and threw that in my face; just for fun I guess. (Or perhaps it made you sleep better at night at something that happened behind the scenes with Wally?) I was curious as to why you stood there while Wally lied about my not having seen mom in six months when you knew full well I had just been there for her birthday. (Not her last one that from which I was excluded; the one before when Satanos made the scene in the hospital when I asked him if he'd make sure mom would get a decent doctor this time.)
Your apparent inability to read the above question in the subject and misinterpreting it as insinuating you were AGAIN lying is somewhat understood, but only due to the number of times you have lied to me. (This was why Viki suggested I TAPE your conversation and she was correct as you don't just lie you are a liar. If the truth does not feel good then you might want to change this habit of yours; you're a little old to still have this as a habit and it WILL affect your work relationships if people cannot trust you.)
You've not returned calls because there was nothing in it for you, or so you perceived and you had to lie, AGAIN, to justify that. During our last telephone conversation you told about your trips, being sick 10 times, and my only other request was to really find out how Jordan was doing. (ie. NOT JUST A LAZY "HOW ARE YOU?" PHONE CALL, TO DO SOMETHING HAVE A DEEP CONVERSATION; as hard as that is for you, I know.)
The only calls I've EVER gotten from you was when you needed something; like Dreamweaver, interfacing your Realtor file, help with your web site, paying your tabs, etc. etc.; this is nothing new and has defined our relationship since you moved here; G-d gave me a sister like you to assist with my forgiveness skills; you've certainly helped with those; after all the lying you've inflicted upon me just since you've been in
CAL you've certainly helped me with my self esteem in this area and for that I must thank you!
However dragging the kids into your selfish hate and lie fest was over the top, well for most people anyway. You've NEVER been predictable and this is why you have trouble with relationships. (You have your father's temper and deep seated hate issues and they were even exhibited in the email in one line while being denied in the next. See purple highlighted LIES BELOW.)
into your little temper tantrum of stupidity was over the top and only caused them damage. Not everyone has had a screwed up relationship with their father(s) and other men in their life as you have always have, so perhaps your ignorance is partially to blame.
"Hell hath no wrath of a women scorned"
You're likely still hurting over our turning down your offers in ~2000 of having 'family' dinners with you and Rich. Sorry, it was not meant to hurt but I did not want your behaviors of throwing fits or lying to rub off on my kids and lets face it you and Rich were not exactly family with him being unwilling to even marry you.
They, I'm very sure, will be unable to make the same excuses as you're still able to make and will be honest adults regardless of the bad examples deviating from this they did receive from family.
I know this because THEY have GOOD HEARTS and good consciences! They, like ALL others, will not be perfect, but they'll be better than most of the adults around here that seem to think lying is a skill set to be refined.
I cannot say there would not be a thing or two I'd change, if given the opportunity, but overall I'm quite proud of the way I raised them, with lots of quality time and attention that I know reflects on the extremely good way they have with taking care of kids and in other ways I'm sure. "Always tell the truth" etc. etc.
You also need to also recognize that most people, have mostly GOOD things from the past upon which to "DWELL" and the way you treat me one would think I had something to do with your ill childhood. You'd think that I never came to your aid the dozen or more times you needed it, and then waste my time or ignored what I said and got screwed anyway. (NOT THAT YOU SHOULD DWELL ON IT; BUT DO NOT DELUDE YOURSELF EITHER; THIS IS WHY YOU KEEP GETTING RIPPED OFF by "FRIENDS". LOL! Some 'friends'.)
WILL YOU EVER LEARN???
(Very, VERY SMALL LIE LIST)
(i) Claimed I said,
a) "Dana trained her dog to pee on just my foot." L I E.
b) "Bragged to Pepa about being a millionaire." L I E.
c) Claimed to not dwell on the past HELLO?? How do you spell DOE DOE BIRD ? L I E, you displayed same in this very email .
d) Claimed I was 'paranoid' for warning you about loaning your money to Stan even though he RIPPED YOU? HELLO?
e) Claimed Farrell Nelson said "You'd see me on TV". (Farrell denied anything of the sort.)
You are so stuck in the past or it would not keep dribbling out of your mouth and behaviors. Have you seen anyone that behaves like you?
IF YOU DO NOT WANT YOUR ILL DEEDS GOING AROUND THEN PLEASE LEAVE ME OUT OF YOUR HALLUCINATIONS and LIES!
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To: jordan anderson
Cc: Wendy Hughes
Subject: RE: What made you think that Jordan got a call?
Date: Jun 3, 2009 3:28 PMI hope you can see that the 'officer' worded her questions so that you could tell the truth and she could get out of doing her job. (This was reported to internal affairs as I put everything in writing FIRST.) She was told EXACTLY what I thought had happened and still designed her questions so that you'd say nothing happened. Knowing full well you likely do not know about voice spoofing/bugging at your age and covering up for this FELONY criminal act using a telephonic device; also told her I'd take a Brain Fingerprint to prove it.
If you want me to take responsibility for calling you, and that will make you happy then consider it done. However, make no mistake, that it's only now that I've lied or deceived you, as only Nicolette has stooped that low up to this point.
However, having said that it's also common knowledge that forgiving people for their transgressions is the best policy for each of us as holding grudges only will eat at us from the inside. It's just not worth beating others up over past hurts as it results in stress in the person doing it. (That's why it says 'forgive us our tresspasses as we forgive others of theirs' in the Bibles.)
(Chorus)
I love you both and would NEVER do anything that would hurt you and anyone knows that telling a kid bad things about a parent, true or false, only hurts the kid.
Sorry, for repeating and I fully understand why you would think what you thought considering it was in my voice. I dunno exactly what was played back to you, but do know things were said in the heat of the battle of divorce. This was in the privacy of my office and only to other friends during the divorce.
with love,
-----Original Message-----
>From: jordan anderson
>Sent: May 29, 2009 11:49 AM
>To: Wendy Hughes
Subject: RE: What made you think that Jordan got a call?
A man once told me, "always tell the truth!" and so when the police called asking me if I have received any calls or messages that were strange or threatening I told her no I haven't, because that's the TRUTH! Maybe you should check your "source" before you start falsely accusing people! I would give you a copy of my phone records to prove this to you...if I cared! Its NOT worth my time and it shouldn't be worth yours either, but we all know that you do what you want. Its unfortunate that you have this notion that people are out to get you and dedicated to ruining your life, I cant imagine what that must be like...
-----Original Message-----
>From: Wendy Hughes
>Sent: May 29, 2009 10:39 AM
>To: t
>Cc: Courtney Anderson , Jordan Anderson
>Subject: Re: What made you think that Jordan got a call?
>
>Tim:
>
>Stop
>this insanity. I have not called you back because I do not feel it is
>necessary. I don't have time to rehash everything that has ever
>happened in your life. I have no idea what any of this is about, nor do
>I care. Courtney and Jordan are doing great. None of this has any
>credence and it a waste of time.
>Regarding the phones calls you said
>came from Rich and I, the ones where I was ripped a new one and called
>a liar; they were probably the same kind that are occurring to people
>all over the planet. It's called pocket calls. Calls accidently made by
>sitting on your phone or inadvertently pressing the call button. I have
>actually received a few from you while you were driving somewhere with
>Jordan, a very long time ago.
>
>
>You have left several messages on Jordan's voice mail over the past several years. I obviously don't know what they were.
>Only what either Jordan or Viki told me. So please stop insinuating
>that I lied and said something that wasn't said. I'm tired of these
>emails that are copied to everyone on the planet, so please remove me
>from your list.
>
>I choose NOT to dwell on the past, so you can think whatever you want about me and my life. Frankly I don't give a damn.
>
>
>________________________________
>From: t
>To: Wendy Hughes ; Deda Darling
>Sent: Friday, May 29, 2009 5:27:27 AM
>Subject: What made you think that Jordan got a call?
>
>Trashing her mom? I've filed a police report as Richard told me he got several text messages from me that were not sent. Another message from an old activist
>friend gave me the impression he'd received a radical message from me
>regarding politics and I now have to wonder if that was spoofed.
>
>Surely
>you can see the multi-million dollar law firm having to go under due to
>an 'enhancement' to a program they had me make and suddenly all the
>harassment makes sense. what I knew was a threat to them and my boss,
>the only other person knowing about the software is now dead.
>
>Recently,
>while moving from Ida's a person first threatened me and then attempted
>to crash my RV at highway speeds; I've been remiss for not filing police reports.
>However, if I file a report and then Jordan tells them nothing happened it does not look good which was the goal all along. Courtney NEVER
>said she thought nothing was going on and like Viki, thought it was all
>related to "Steve Vanbibber". Unless he's able to leverage people in
>the WCPD, Lake Tahoe and the school, this was a ridiculous suggestion.
>
>PLEASE
>GET BACK TO ME ON THIS; these people have, quite successfully smeared
>me with my own family. Why does Linda not return my calls? Does she
>know about the mega million dollar law firm that had to shut down?
>
>Thanks
>for getting back to me on this as I cannot get any traction without
>solid information. Viki and Jordan denied having received any such
>calls.
>
>Regards,
>me
>
>________________________________
>From: t
>To: Wendy Hughes ; Deda Darling
>Sent: Friday, May 29, 2009 5:27:27 AM
>Subject: What made you think that Jordan got a call?
>
>Trashing her mom? I've filed a police report as Richard told me he got several text messages from me that were not sent. Another message from an old activist friend gave me the impression he'd received a radical message from me regarding politics and I now have to wonder if that was spoofed.
>
>Surely you can see the multi-million dollar law firm having to go under due to an 'enhancement' to a program they had me make and suddenly all the harassment makes sense. what I knew was a threat to them and my boss, the only other person knowing about the software is now dead.
>
>Recently, while moving from Ida's a person first threatened me and then attempted to crash my RV at highway speeds; I've been remiss for not filing police reports. However, if I file a report and then Jordan tells them nothing happened it does not look good which was the goal all along. Courtney NEVER said she thought nothing was going on and like Viki, thought it was all related to "Steve Vanbibber". Unless he's able to leverage people in the WCPD, Lake Tahoe and the school, this was a ridiculous suggestion.
>
>PLEASE GET BACK TO ME ON THIS; these people have, quite successfully smeared me with my own family. Why does Linda not return my calls? Does she know about the mega million dollar law firm that had to shut down?
>
>Thanks for getting back to me on this as I cannot get any traction without solid information. Viki and Jordan denied having received any such calls.
>
>Regards,
>me
>
From: tim
To: wendyahughes@yahoo.com
Subject: Communicating
Date: Jul 24, 2009 1:12 AM
Wendy,
There are many other reasons for someone to be attacked that their having done something *wrong*, as you should know better than MOST. Jealousy, slanderous hate mongering, mental health problems, finding corruption to name a few.
Courtney and Jordan, (& you) were attacked by *strangers* and they had done NOTHING. Some people get high on power trips over others; it's a sickness.
What if someone said to you, "You MUST have done something" to have happen to you what happened to you by Don? THINK ABOUT IT.
When I, a couple of years ago, mentioned a real fear I had about Don, before I could even get it out, you jumped to the conclusion that I was 'throwing something in your face'. [You were never for a moment, concerned about your nieces being put at risk; only about your own personal feelings? It's no wonder you do not understand me my reaction would have been the exact opposite.]
That was an incorrect conclusion, [it was not about you], but we never even got there because of your usual over-reaction.
The reason was picking up Courtney from having stayed with him for a few hours in an afternoon and finding her CRYING.
I'm not saying a meaningful life cannot be had or that I want your pity, just understanding and reasonable judgments, if you must, based on the facts. ALL THE FACTS.
Have you been bedridden due to having what feels like a knife in your back because you walked too far, sat too long in a car, both, and/or lifted too much?
Or having to take 24/7 pain medication and then pain pills when the above happens?
Do you suppose this is where the 'Don't judge a person until you've walked two moons in their moccasins" came from?
Wendy, considering your background, one really wonders how you feel comfortable judging ANYONE; you're certainly in NO superior position to anyone, except perhaps Don.
When we last spoke I tried to relate a very old feeling I and before it could even complete, you were telling me what I could have/should have done. I was unable to even finish the part where I thought MY FEELINGS were wrong and you were telling me
advice. Lacking was the ability to even hear me out let along try to understand what I was saying. I *sincerely* hope I'm the only one who triggers this reaction.
When I last saw you ancient 20+ year old poisons were "rehashed", to use your word, into my face you would not even listen or could not hear the rest of the story. All of it had been twisted
in one way or another and I DO NOT THINK IT WAS YOU.
If a car had been involved, instead of words, it would be called 'hit and run'.
What happened to the person that had feelings, emotions and empathy?
Just a year or so before your feelings were OK enough to allow me to help you with your website and or software. What happened in the interim?
You seem to react before someone can even get the entire thought out let alone trying to look at someones ELSE'S feelings through their eyes. This is crucial in relationships.
If you approach Jordan with this approach that seems to lack, completely, empathy, you will shut her down.
She NEEDS as many ppl as possible that love her like I know you both do to understand what she's been through with the 'excuses' she has. Including the 'OCD traits' that started her last year at Los Lomas.
When you have the opportunity to talk to her just listen, and talk about your experiences, how they made you feel. Otherwise she'll think your going to judge her and tell her what to do and just avoid talking to you.
Please ask Linda about my old 'complaints' to her about my kids not being close to you or mom.
This should ring a bell as to how true your current belief system is. Katie too was told about some of it, but she could not recall and with Linda taking those SSRIs I'm afraid she too might not recall, but she might. Unless you prefer to believe these poisons that were inculcated by Wally and misunderstandings as well. You know my memory has always been better than yours, and it's beyond
me as to why you'd want to maintain the garbage you threw at me during our mom's passing of all times.
And you want to imply or state I have mental problems? (Sudden, adult onset, LOL!) You've had these "MEN" mental problems since you were a kid and with good reason, but why put them off onto others?
>
>--- On Thu, 3/5/09, t wrote as a direct result of very petty, but unfounded judging, hate and poison slinging during mom's last days. Not to mention being left out of mom having been hospitalized for four days crying in fear, and finding out through Jordan.
>
>> From: t
>> Subject: Judge not lest ye not be judged
>> To: "Wendy Hughes"
>> Cc: "court"
>> Date: Thursday, March 5, 2009, 3:27 AM
>> Other issues of which you were unaware around the time of
>> mom's demise:
>>
>> 1) All the keys to the vehicles that to which I had access
>> were found removed one day.
>> 2) I was told by her brother in law that the "next
>> week I'd find my stuff out in the street." It was
>> raining. (I had put blankets in the RV should I come
>> 'home' and find the locks had been changed.(The
>> brakes had been tampered with.) He also attempted to scare
>> me with physical threats; lunging at me and when I did not
>> move he just said, "MOVE". He was a former "gang banger" about >> 350 lbs. and thought after all
>> the threats I was afraid of HIM.)
>> 3) My personal survival was threatened by all these mental
>> games, not to mention low income, at the end and at the
>> worst possible time. I was an emotional wreck you may recall
>> I "cared so little about mom" and my only support
>> had also been pulled when the news of Danny came in. Ida
>> turned into a ruthless "B" over "stuff", but her
>> sisters political career is set I'm sure. Watsonville
>> will have an Akimoto/Belgard politician real soon.
>> 4) It became obvious every time I went away my things were
>> being rifled through. (Having trust dashed against the rocks is hard.)
>> 5) A gun appears to have been switched with one that does
>> not match that which was returned by WCPD. What's the
>> history of my 'new' gun?
>>
>> All this with my long time ADHD did not add up to clear
>> thinking and 'hurting back' is an understatement; it
>> was 2 day recovery from that trip.
>>
>> Of course, again, as you say, I'm the common
>> denominator as anyone targeted by having been blacklisted
>> would be. Is that not kind of obvious? It was not to you.
>> how can you judge if you were afraid of even looking at the
>> evidence?
>>
>> Did you also avoid the negative evidence on your loans?
>
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
To Catch a Terrorist
In these days of an ever dwindling American Constitution there would be a very easy method of catching all the terrorists and corrupt officials of every type and it would only take a temporary suspension of one constitutional right to not incriminate yourself until they were rooted out.
Then give every person suspected of being a terrorist a Brain Fingerprint. When I say 'terrorist' I mean a real threats to America and not just those with differing opinions on certain government policies. Especially war as sometimes these can simply be based on false information and this covert policy, formerly called COINTELPRO, is the antithesis of everything American.
There exists nothing more painful than reading international press articles essentially spinning America as the new Nazi empire and this characterization could not be more false for 99.999% of the population. Frankly, those groups in America that appear to have similar leanings, much of the time, have been organized by those that do not even live anywhere near America.
How else would they have been able to cast us as the next 'World Enemy' had they not funded, and many times under duress, projects or policies that allow us to be so cast? (ie. Now that we've been bled dry of most of our remaining wealth and have only an aging population as 'assets'.)
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